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This time I'm gonna fucking lay it down. I'm going to splash this shit. I'm gonna fucking make up for that bull shit weak showing amateur hour shit from a couple days ago...

Today I experienced something that I will remember for the rest of my entire fucking life. A memory that I will continue to remember like it was yesterday. Today I did something that truely meant "the world and more" to me. Today I went to a St. Louis Rams game. Today I did something that I told myself I was going to do before I die. Today I did something where nothing in this life mattered but this game. Today I was in the 3rd row of the Edward Jones Dome which is a mind blowing building and watched a team that I have been an avid fan of since I was in 5th grade. Not only did I watch the football team that I would die for today, I also got to see a special ceremony honoring one of the greatest wide receivers in NFL history. I saw him in person today. I saw Issac Bruce in person get his jersey number retired. That almost made me broke down. I watched this man play as I grew up. From elementary school to high school he was the #1 receiver for my team. To see him in person. Be 100 feet away from. Just mind blowing. Lately I have talked about experiencing things in life. And this experience today is something I will never forget or trade anything for. I sat in my seat and looked at the clock tick down minute by minute. Quarter by quarter. I remember telling myself "man this game is going too fast." I did not want this game to end. I was so happy. So content. I didn't care about anything else in life. What an incredible feeling. Thank you mom. Thank you dad. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart.

But as I lay here and explain how remarkable this event was, I think to myself. I wish I had someone other than family be there with me. I wanted to experience this with a loved one that meant everything to me (other than family). But she left me so I couldn't have that happen.

I got an email today. She showed emotion. She truly showed emotion. I could feel what she was thinking. It hit me. It really did. I asked for an email with feeling and thats what I got. But I just have to tell myself....

She's gone. She's not yours anymore....




Thanks Armin...
J13 wait no....


Tonight its J80